I am dreading my EDD. My thoughts are all over the place. I miss you so much Ryan. I hope one day I will see you again. Daddy and I talk about you at least once a day. Somehow your name always comes up like if you would watch Phineas and Ferb or if you would be a quiet kid. Anything that reminds us of you we bring it up.
I am so scared for next week I don't know if I am going to freak out or cry all day. Not one of my family remembers. I feel angry because no one remembers. I feel sad that he is not acknowledge. I feel hurt that not one person from my family asked if we had buried him or cremated him. REALLY.
I think I went back to the things I hope I would never do again.
*Playing hours of video games - nonstop
*Not texting my friends/family (never like talking on the phone)
*Stopped being active (bike rides, basketball, playing catch, walking around the neighborhood).
*Being anti-social
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