Week 19

Week 19 of my pregnancy was very memorable it was the week we found out we were having a baby boy. June 23, 2010 I was 19 weeks and 1 day (wednesday) strong heartbeat, all 4 chambers of his heart was developing well. Brain was developing with no fluid buildup. Spine was perfect. Umbilical cord perfect. All the long bones were progressing well. Saw his feet. Stomach was progressing well. I was sooo happy everything in my ultrasound went well. Then I saw my OB and she ordered an early glucose test so with the ultrasound, doctor visit, blood draw/glucose test I was at the doctor's for 3 hours but it was all worth it. She was just concerned with my glucose levels were a bit high. The day we found out Steve was already back in his room trying to get some rest before work again that afternoon. He woke up just to hear the news "honey we are having a son." Steve was in total shock that we finally knew the gender. He wanted a girl but once he knew we were having a baby boy he was so thrilled. He called me that night and said "we are going to have a son" I just started to cry. I was happy he wasn't disappointed baby boy wasn't a girl.

That Friday I had a couple hours to spare before my college graduation and I talked Steve into doing our baby registry since we knew Ryan is a boy! He was so excited he actually took time looking at diaper bags and strollers/car seats. He took about 10 mins just looking at the diaper bags. We took about 30 mins just looking at the bottles, bibs, bath items, and feeding items. We skipped the big items such as furniture, strollers, and bassinets. Steve took time in most of the things he hand picked himself like the bibs, blankets, and colors for the mattresses and changing pad. Always asking "is this safe" and "are you sure he needs it not you" made me laugh. We chose clothes, booties, hats and mittens. I remember that day like it was yesterday. He was soooooo excited for his son. That weekend he would talk to him like any other days he was home from Virginia, he would always talk to him. He refers to Ryan as "my son" or "i love you son" which melted my heart. The night before he left he said "come on son kick me in the face, come on kick me" They had that bond that would last forever. Even though he didn't hear Ryan's heartbeat or even feel him kick, I knew he loved him very much.

Video chatting with Steve almost everyday was great he would say "here's a kiss for the baby" and he would blow kisses to me and i would catch it and put it on my belly. Every so often he would ask "can i see our baby" I would stand up and show him Ryan. Made me cry because I knew he was ready to be a father even though he was scared and not knowing what to do, I knew he was ready. Most nights when I wasn't tired I would talk to Ryan. Most conversations before we knew the gender was "Hey baby, I know daddy isn't here but just know he is working hard for the both of us. I know you are proud of him and soon we will be together." One time I was talking to Ryan telling him how Steve and I met and how Steve proposed. Also I say "Hey baby, we can't wait to meet you. Everyone is really excited of your arrival." I just loved talking to Ryan. Even saying "Okay time for breakfast or time to nap." Just certain things that help me get through the night.